August 15, 2014: I've just launched a new blog, Gronk!, in partnership with the Portico Network, a new mental health network and information clearinghouse, sponsored by CAMH. Gronk! will bring you into my studio and into my head as I work on Dinosaur. Please join me here.
Dinosaur is the title of my current work-in-progress – a ripping good yarn about "life with a very scary brain." The story is based on my own experience of three months spent in residential treatment for severe Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder symptoms. The program at the OCD Institute in Boston, MA, was my last ditch chance at recovery; I had exhausted all other available therapies and had made serious suicide attempts. It was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do in my life, but along the way I learned a great deal, and the staff at the clinic shared in that learning.
Why is it called Dinosaur? My own sense of myself was that I was dangerous and out-of-control, a monster. Rather than live with the possibility that I might hurt another person, which was the basis of my obsessions, I believed I should die. Soon I was confronted with a decision to make: would I evolve and survive? or would I stay stuck, knowing I would eventually kill myself?